rants and raves

Find me at my new location

2009-11-19T22:18:25+01:00

http://debaucheddecadence.blogspot.com/

i have moved because i just dont want to rember half the stuff i whinged about in this blog (ie old infatuations and eating disorders)

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Catch Up- Tuffty's 18th

2009-03-08T21:56:31+01:00

Here are some things that i have happened in the last 6 months.

Pre AO going interailing

Tuffty had his 18th at which I got very very drunk with the help of waffle, who spent the entire night talking about how hot i was. A few random people we met there assumed Wafle and i were dating, when Square Boobs (whom he was currently "seeing" and had asked me to find out why he was off with her) was sitting right there. I had my first ever flaming sambuka and spent the rest of the night with waffle ordering my drinks and asking for "the strongest drink you have" which happened to be rum.
Waffle walked me home.
Both AO and Square Boobs protested and offered that i got in taxi's with them even though it was the opposite direction.
was accosted by youths attempting to ask me out in town, Waffle said i had a boyfriend- they said he was a lucky guy.
For some reason i called Brown Bare, Waffle dared me to make orgasm noises down the phone and i did. I didn't belive Brown Bare that i did this later untill he played the recording to my emmbarrassment.
Waffle and i wobbled home, i asked about Square Boobs and he said he wasnt attracted to her anymore and how he would like to bend shorty over a desk.
waffle was about to kiss me when my mother pulled up in her car.

i had my first really bad hangover that night and had to fill in passport forms at 6 am.
in town several people thought i was dying or something and asked if they should call a doctor, as i held on to a lamp post for dear life. Emms offered me water.
I had to clean up the rost dinner i had cooked AO the night before- i kept smelling Sambuka somehow.

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Re- reading

2009-03-08T21:41:08+01:00

Re- reading old entries of your blog is really weird, particually when you haven't written anything for about a year. I had completly forgotton about Tuffty and Waffle or Mother Mary saying i should date Waffle.

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Oh god

2008-07-12T14:55:06+02:00

Am I a bad person?

I'm fantising about one of my best female friends whilst my boyfriend is in europe- this is the first time iv thought about someone else specifically since he has been gone.
But omg..... i want her, and i'm seeing her tonight
I know we will probabaly make out and bump and grind, thats what we do- people expect it of us
Andy doesn't mind it

but i really want her

i keep fantisisng about the things i want to do to her

i am a bad bad person

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"I take it you're not coming online tonight"

2008-06-29T00:51:03+02:00

"I take it you're not coming online tonight"

What sort of lame statement is that? At 12 am when it must be about 1 am his time.
"I take it you're not comming online tonight"
In no circumstances is that not a statement brimming with a sense of the passive agressive, it's the question that isn't really a question. A statement. A point of fact. Designed for the soul purpose of reminding the accused that they did infact promise an act that they did not perform. The eppifany of femminin manlipulation.
It is something said by those who do not dare make an outright statement and instead hide in the shadows, the nuances and subtlties of the human language. Hoping that he will not grasp your intent but subconciously sense that he is in trouble, and so interpret that as he has done something wrong.
It is for those who doubt themselves. Doubt their right to make a stand, their standing with his peers, the strength of their boyfriends attraction to them to overlook these occasional outbursts.
And I am one of those.

I know that he is crazy over me and that i need not worry. But i doubt my right, my right to be annoyed over this. My own logic tells me that i am expecting too much, that i am being clingy, annoying. That were I dating myself i would have been driven crazy by this now.
My emotions say I'm annoyed - bloody annoyed.

I am a vessel containing a cold war. Perhaps even an active one.
My logic and emotions are conflicting, even my logic and my logic is doing so. My own understanding of what i consider to be right leads me to hate myself. The composition of this entry encapsulates this hatred and is something that yet again i should, and do, dispise.

I do not like clingy persons. Actually scrap that. I have no problem with clingy persons, just so long as they are not clinging to me.
I also do not endorse controling other people just because you are dating them. Allow me to elaborate somewhat. In my view, people should try to avoid hurting somone they are dating- ergo actions which upset them should be avoided, although this should not be at the price of changing something fundimental to that person.
I.e if someone had a problem with me flirting with other women in a joking manner they could go hang.
To summerise i belive that people should be able to be indipendent people when in relationships.
Nothing confused or scared me more than when my boyfriend asked me if i was ok with him going out with his best friend, particually as we had been dating for only a few weeks and had nothing planned together for that time.

Perhaps because of this i have a severe problem with the concept of me becoming a clingy girlfriend. Someone who ruins boys nights out or gets all bitchy.

So here is my problem.
AO (my boyfriend) is interailing around europe. He previously attempted to talk to me via msn but i had friends over and so wasn't talking much, I felt guilty about this. However he constantly went on about how it was ok as he would talk to me on saturday.
Last night we could only talk for 16 mins but it was ok because we would talk on saturday according to him.
Forever and a day it seemed that he has been insisting that we would talk on saturday when he was staying at doms relitivs. He would text me beforhand and then we would be able to talk.
So, today was saturday. I recived a text from friends asking if i wanted to go to the cinema or do something else, but i politly declinded it because i had "a family thing and i didn't know when it would end" although that was true in reality i didn't want to be out incase i missed AO.
Because it was obvious that I had hurt him last time.
So i clear all my plans for today. At midnight i figured-
I take it he's not coming online tonight.

No text to say he wouldn't
nothing to tell me to not waste my entire day on him
even when i told him that i may not be able to get online he said "Don't worry I'll send you an email then, I just want to talk to you"
No email
No offline messages
No, no nothing

I guess I'm more annoyed because I have turned into the kindof person who waits in on the offchance of some contact from their partner.
Well i say offchance- on the repeated promise that was first mentioned by him on because of no promt by me.
Yes I'm annoyed

But
"I take it you're not coming online tonight"
Because I still see it as a byproduct of what I have become and what I have become is something that i do not even hate.
I pity it, with slight disgust

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Excommunicating female priests

2008-06-03T23:13:40+02:00

The Vatican will now excommunicate Female Priests and the bishops who ordane them.
The church said it cannot change the rules banning women from the priesthood because Christ chose only men as his apostles. Church law states that only a baptized male can be made a priest.

Proponents of women's ordination said Christ was only acting according to the social norms of his time.

They cite the letters of Saint Paul, some of the earliest texts of Christianity, to show that women played important roles in the early church.

for more info http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080530/ap_on_re_eu/vatican_women_priests

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womens lib

2008-05-31T12:01:22+02:00

Quoted from Jenny Cruis

As you can probably tell from that last one, I graduated from high school in the sixties. Today it seems absurd that marriage would be a life goal for a woman, but anyone who was around for the pre-Lib days can tell you that the worst thing anyone could say about a woman back then was that she was an Old Maid. It was one step down from Whore because at least whores had men asking to spend time with them. When I got married six weeks before I turned twenty-two, my entire family heaved a sigh of relief. Close call.

The madness that defined women's lives back then was based on four Big Lies:

A woman wasn't a real woman until she was married.
A woman had to distort herself and deny her own identity in order to catch a man to marry. (Remember girdles, spike heels, inane laughter, playing dumb, and flunking math?)
Any husband was better than no husband.
Staying in a bad marriage was better than divorce because God forbid a woman should be unmarried again once she'd finally achieved the goal.

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Tattoo?

2008-05-29T16:29:57+02:00

Well here it is again, that urge to repeatidly stab myself with the needle covered in ink.
And so i have been trawling the interweb looking for something appropriate should i ever get the balls together to get my first tattoo.

I have always toyed with 3 mains ideas
1. A spiral on my hip
2. Κασσάνδρα just below where my jeans fall at the front
3. A dragonfly on my left breast

The first one is spirtual, the second is my name and also means "she who entangles men" and the 3rd has been a fixation of mine since i was 8 reading "the buttifly tattoo" by Philip Paullman

Well after ruling out the Spiral as something i want to put off incase i suddenly by some horrific turn of fate find some form of more conventional organsised religion and attempt to forget my "devil worshipping" days. (+ the hip is a painful place as it's on the bone)
The second one i already know exactly what i would want if i got it.
Now the third one, well a dragonfly was always an alternative to the more conventional butterfly, but here i am trawling the web to find millions of horrifically tacky girly dragonflys- not one of which anything like what i want.

So that's it, I'm going to have to design this myself- crappit, I didn't take art for a reason.

So after looking at photos of Dragonflys and thinking long and hard about what i would want from this tattoo, with about 5 different drawings on the back of my exam timetable...

.... i find myself sitting here, typing this, Butt naked with a dragonfly drawn in black eyeliner circling my left nipple

Obviously i'll need to work on my drawing skills

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I want

2008-05-29T14:46:42+02:00

"I WANT I WANT I WANT"
"I want never gets"

so true

well i want it hard and fast

and i'm not getting it

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I am an Aweful Blogger

2008-04-28T19:20:18+02:00

Blogging for the first time in ages
why?

well appart from the fact that im too lazy its because iv had too much going on
so much blogging material but its been so complicated and i havent known how i felt meaning i couldnt make a chorent post

pointless having a blog eh?

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Oh... I'v really gone and done it now

2008-03-29T15:30:47+01:00

for this, the whirl of complications going through my mind have no chance of creating a coherent entry.

therefor i shall just copy and paste the msn conversation with AO

the first bit is about a complication between Waffle and a close Male friend of mine whom from now on shall be called.... Tuffty

, Minxi.... says:
if you were in the situation where you knew about somones feelings for somone else
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
mmm
, Minxi.... says:
but knew the other person didnt feel the same, but couldnt tell the person who felt for them why because it would get the person into trouble
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
ye#
Minxi.... says:
and maybe spoil their friendship, but if you dont say something the person that fancies the other person is on the verge of spoiling their freindship...
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
ye
Minxi.... says:
just keep stum?
, Minxi.... says:
or find a way to subtly warn the other be a tad more ...subtle?
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
erm i tink if its gona ruin the frendship u need to say cus either way itll ruin frendship
, Minxi.... says:
ye...
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
like if one person isnt comfortable then itll ruin how they feel 4 the person hu fancies em wereas if they say sumin at least the other person can move on
, Minxi.... says:
true
, Minxi.... says:
then again i do sometimes cling to the hope that this person secretly does like the other one but just pretends not to
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
n if they rlly get tht wrkd up ova u sayin ur uncomfortable wit it then ther nt rlly tht gd a frend r they
Minxi.... says:
hmm
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
hu u tlkin bout
t, Minxi.... says:
i dont know that i can say
, Minxi.... says:
its a bit... heavy
Minxi.... says:
not like they love them or something but its just a bit... complicated
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
kk bt if u dnt tell me my mind cud go crazy with jealousy n worry

So that was about Tuffty fancing the pants off Waffle, all the while Waffle was txting me saying how annoyed he was with Tuffty cause Tuffty was all over him

Rest of the Convo
About how everyone has been telling AO that Waffle has been acting inapropriiatly around me and that maybe he should be worried that there is something going on between us

It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
dnt worry u wud be the person tht didnt fancy
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
n im jst jkin
Minxi.... says:
lol
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
playin on things others say
Minxi.... says:
o0o gossip? Do spill
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
well its bout u
Minxi.... says:
o0o even more intrueging
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
so im suprised u cnt tell
Minxi.... says:
tellllll meeee
Minxi.... says:
i may have a hunch, but if im wrong it would just sound wrong etc
Minxi.... says:
so teeeeeeellllll meeeee
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
well ur hunch is probs rite
Minxi.... says:
just tell me fool
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
seen as it wud sound rong
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
lol
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
sum ppl av sed to me tht the feel awkward by how this person acts round u
Minxi.... says:
ok now im really confused and facinated
Minxi.... says:
who is it?
Minxi.... says:
i dont know anyone who acts differently around me to anyone else
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
ye he dsnt act differently round u jst acts the same as he wud with ny1 bt ppl feel he shudnt cus wer goin out
Minxi.... says:
Ok just tell me
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
lol b4 i do jst confirm it aint my opinion cus i no how u feel bout the person n no ud never do nytin
Minxi.... says:
ok
It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says:
bt Waffle It's nice to tink ur mum cn 4get bout u n lock u out de house... den u realise its 2 o'clock in da bloody mornin n freezin!!!!!!! says: well they wer like av noticed how pelle acts round u like he fancies her
SHIIIIIIIIITTTTTT GOD DAMNIT I KNEW IT, BUGGERY OF THE MOST ANAL KIND!!

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Sexually attracted to the wrong guy

2008-03-28T19:51:17+01:00

God Dammit im so attracted to Waffle right now, as i frequently am
but a very close guy friend of mine is (practicly?) inlove with him. And my best female friend has had a huge crush on since about september
Not to mention im dating AO!!

Oh curses.... why does waffle have to have that all empowering sexuality.

and why is he always there when AO isn't? now i dont mean emotionally, but when i haven't got any for ages from AO he's always there to talk to about sex, and is just a laugh 24/7 particularly if AO is glued to the saga (games console) and doesn't know i exist.

AND WHY IS THE ENTIRE WORLD DETERMINED TO GET US TOGETHER???
Brown bear has always been fixated by the idea, Mother Mary bought it up after not seeing waffle for two years and seeing me for the first time in about 6/9 months just after seeing us together that one day.
His ex gf used to hate me cause everyone thought that he dumped her so that we could get together
and this was all when i wasn't having sexual fantasies with him as the main star!!

Oh dear.....

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I SET FIRE TO THE KITCHEN pictures

2008-03-24T15:54:45+01:00

to all of you that don't know (i.e all of you)
yesterday on easter Sunday i set fire to my families brand new kitchen
ironically i wasn't even cooking anything (well apart from flame grilling the household that is)

i put a wooden tray on-top of the UNLIT hob but some how managed via that to explode the glass hob and set fire to the kitchen
the extractor fan was also on so the smoke alarm didn't go off meaning that there was a very real risk i could have killed everyone in the house

these are some pics of the hob

and this is the kitchen it took us 9 months to coerce the fitters into finishing and that we still havent finished paying for.
DEFIANTLY on the top ten list of idiotic things i have done.

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My boyfriend- the history coursework saint!!

2008-03-24T15:45:56+01:00

so im sitting here staring at the history c/w question
my mind draws a blank

so i call AO saying "How did you do your history question???????????? i cant do it!!!!!!!"
and so after asking me to remind him what the question was he goes through all the points i need to put in my intro and main paragraphs and promises to find me some of his old drafts to give me next time he see's me

if it wasn't enough that he is a saint in every sense and when i called him i was actually going through his old history folder which he donated to me, he is doing this as well
he really is a sweety

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Worst Nightmare of my life

2008-03-24T14:32:23+01:00

Ok so in real life i have been dating a not very Roman Catholic for about 3 months, im his first GF and we are both still in education
(thank god he is pretty much RC in title alone )

Ok now to the dream
in my dream i went to go on the pill on tuesday (just as i am in real life) and before my GP would prescribe it i had to take a pregnancy test, to make sure if i was preggers it wouldn't cause complications
So i go and take the test certain it will be negative
but it wasn't
and i was certifiably up the duff
so i immediately call my best friend bekki crying IM PREGNANT IM PREGNANT MY LIFE IS OVER
then i go to school and casually ask AO how he feels about Abortion, not letting on that im pregnant
he tells me he is completely and utterly against it
(by now my two friends bekki and katy know about my situation) and i tell Kt that there is no way i can tell AO that im preggers as he doesn't belie in abortion and there is no way in hell i can keep it- for a start my mother doest even know im sexually active!!

i cant remember how i sorted out my dilemma in my dream, but very scary all round

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The Pill

2008-03-24T14:19:20+01:00

Tomorrow after my orthodontist appointment i think ill head down to the surgery and see if i can get myself on the pill.

Wow its almost painful to think that my mother still believes that i am her virgin daughter
she wont let me stay over at AO's and because of which he is eager for me to tell her that we've been doing the naughty (because he thinks that after which she will be okay with me staying over at his- Oh the naivety)

needless to say the BF is looking forward to all the unprotected sex

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Dream cheating?

2008-03-24T13:05:25+01:00

Is it wrong that i had a dream about Waffle giving me a naked back massage in Virgin Active (he works there)
I know there would be nothing wrong if it weren't for the fact that he is a cad, and i am occasionally slightly maybe a bit attracted to him (only when I'm particularly rampant mind) and the fact that i am dating AO.

is it wrong that it was more of a slight daydream (NOT A FANTASY, just nodding off a bit during the day)

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Hahaha men

2008-03-24T00:07:05+01:00

so im lying on top of AO nibbling his ear when this happens

AO: *gasp* "Rude!"
Me: "what?"
AO: *jokingly* "You're supposed to kiss people on their mouths, not their ears, how rude of you!"
Me: "Oh i'm ever so sorry, i'll make sure my mouth never touches another part of your anatomy than your lips from now on"
AO: *Strangled cry* "Please don't"

ha ha men

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I WANT SEX

2008-03-23T22:54:03+01:00

Good God i want sex!!!

gaaah

being a girl sucks

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Me vs. Bf the sex drive wars

2008-03-09T10:56:33+01:00

Hmmm it occured to me today that i may very well have a greater sex drive than my BF
or maybe i would be more appropriate to say that he is more likly to use reason when it comes to sex like

"the parents are down stairs"
"you need to do work"
"i was supposed to give you a lift to the station, you'll be late"

hmmm
in fact that is the case with everyone
..... exept Waffle of course, he is definatly as adventurious as me
but its for the best that its me and AO not Waffle

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Scary Old Lady Update!

2008-03-03T14:46:15+01:00

She doesnt have a book!!!

she is just sitting in the library staring at me exept to occasionally look in her bag to then stare back at me with increases intensity

i was doing rather well with my socioligy untill i noticed her, now im just throughally fraked out and have the urge to blog..

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More Scary Old Lady

2008-03-03T14:44:00+01:00

as i finished typing something on the computer i noticed the scary old lady had gone to siton a table facing away from me *phew*
rather than contuning to hide behind the bookcase glaring at me

then suddenly she swung right the way round and stared right at my curosry glance
staring/glaring (its hard to tell she just looks seriously alarmed) i must express that i was just looking in that general direction of the room she full on swung round and looked straight at me looking alarmed see that i had notcied her

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Scary old lady

2008-03-03T14:36:11+01:00

So here i am in the public library working on my socioligy coursework and every time i look up there is a scary old woman with a furry hat staring at me from behind the book case, and im not talking about a curious glance a full on "my eyeballs are about to fall out" stare.
Peering from behind the bookshelf she watches me while her eyes flash in alarm as i see her so she darts back behind the shelf untill next time i look when she is peering that much more obviously.

Scary stuff

I must have inadvertantnly muttered something about the Melbourne Sex industry under my breath and now she wants to burn me as a prostitute or worse hire me.

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Another Sex Post

2008-02-22T21:38:40+01:00

Ok just to start

AO ran into a door penis first, and not just any part of the door- the sharp piece of metal that holds the door closed
OUCH
he had a cut on the gland of his penis
the ironic thing is he did it running upstairs to get a condom because i refuse to not practise safe sex
so much for getting condoms being the safe option

then when we decided to get to it anyway- my taxi turns up and i mean litrally just that moment the door went, when he has the condom on and iv just lubed him up- DING DONG

so today we go to have sex and he has fingured me so roughly with his nails + no real foreplay apart from that, that when we have sex combined with the warming lube it feels like im loosing my virginity again
so we have to stop

only im not going to tell him that its becase he is crap at hand jobs so i have to be the one apoligising to him, when he is the one making it so i cant sit down comfortably

Oh and it kindof ruined the fact that i'd dressed up as a school girl to feed his kink when i couldnt have sex with him!

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SODS LAW I WANT SEX

2008-02-19T20:43:15+01:00

Ok so i have been on my period for every party (exept socials) that i have been to since pre prom

today i was going to my bf's party untill i got grounded, yesterday was the last day of my period
not only that but because of that fact i havent had sex since my birthday (one week) and anyone who knows me will certify that i am one horney motherfucker

i have also been giving him more hand and blow jobs than you can shake a pointy stick at, and although i dont mind doing that one bit- i would like some action now PLEASE
and he would like to give me some action
not forgetting that on my birthday we hadnt had sex for a few days due to various things and then on the day we only have sex once :\
due to complications with over use of tingle lube
and even the time we did have sex i finished him off, which isnt my favorite thing as its usually when it feels the best that he says "could you finish me off?" i just want to scream "NO! I WANT SEX!"

Dear god im going crazy i.just.want.him.so.much

ANNND i have had a hollywood wax but due to the parents i couldnt be with him on newyearsball night so this painful wax has only had two showings
its gunna have started to grow back in a very Ugly fashion by the next time i see him

yeah yeah needless to say im fucking gagging for it

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Your Fat

2008-02-17T23:48:10+01:00

"You should loose some weight"

not one of the best things to say to a recovering anorexic.
Bless his heart AO has no idea about my eating disorder of course, and he was only joking too he was being sarcastic but me pretending to be overly offended means that he has started to say it to tease me (still joking) particually when i say he looks like a goat (in a loving way i ment the fawn from Narnia)

but yes... not the best thing to say to a "recovered" Anorexic

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The problem

2008-02-10T22:38:32+01:00

The problem with pretending you don't care, is people hurt you compleltly unintentionally

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A single magpie

2008-01-30T19:44:51+01:00

when i saw that magpie i knew it was bad luck for me
had shannon rip my head off this morning over some work in for baker, which i did in time for him etc. just my way wasnt orthadox
then Mr. Twat took me out of bakers session to have a go about Pricy
went down to see pricy with Twat and gave Ging his work at the same time (Confused by all the names yet?)Ging said my work wasnt what he wanted Twat had a hissy over final contracts, ect.
Later i had my community service where the one of the kids knew about my lesbianic ways and was making hand gestures all through the lesson. and one of the groups were doing their project about anorexia. to which i think i gave the game away by being able to tell them shit loads of stuff about it and giving them a book "i just so happend to have on me" about how to recover from eating disorders.
i dont think it went unnoticed by Chappers (the teacher)
then i went to get Gings update on the work to which he said i shouldnt let things get me down, and stay ontop of things because he would hate to loose me

another point, i think Joel is pissed with me because i missed his last two comminity sevices because i was scared i would run into pricey, and the one b4 that he was ill

and AO gave me his file today which was nice of him
Shannon caught me and him in a corridoor and asked him if he had given it to me in harsh tones, i feel sorry for him, shannon seems to have decided he should be keeping me in order or somthing, so when im in shit- he gets attacked too.

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Mr. Twat

2008-01-29T21:10:01+01:00

Called me at home today at 7pm
wtf?
office hours finish at 3-4 mate.
Called me up asking if i had Gings work in yet, to which i explained to him that i had given Ging his work and that he mearly wanted it in electornicly.
As if he didnt know.
its funny how the day after Mr. Twats talk Ging spoke to us all saying that he didnt want to have this talk only Mr.Twat made him, and that he needed all the reasearch in electronicly by tommorow or we would be diciplined- much to Gings displeasure, i mean who is Twat to tell him how to run things? + Ging doesnt have time to disiplin us he has a production to run. tosser (Twat not Ging, i love Rupert).
So it is now apprent that Mr.Twat is chasing after me, and making people change deadlines to try to catch me out on my contract, much the same way he has tried to arrange meetings when i am ment to be working on somthing for the next meeting.
Well at least AO is giving me all the notes tommorow which should help and will give me somthing to tell Shannon i have achieved when he next asks.

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Accused of Ana?

2008-01-29T17:23:55+01:00

Sunday night we got a takeout in, and i was furious with my parents for a unrelated event
the takeout i was given was 5 spice prawns, nice if you in the mood but if your not its a case of "eww fishy sweet and sour with stale rice"
so i had one or two and didnt have anymore (bare in mind that i had consumed a bout a kilo of chocolate previously)

my mum then starts going on about why am i not eating? and how she had noticed that i was weighing myself on the scales (ie she had notcied that i set them back to pounds)

then the next morning my parents had a meeting with Mr.Twat which i was a bit worried about hence not being hungry.
now i NEVER have breakfast, particually if im in a hurry etc, so the mother sent me to get some and i just pretended id had some bread
to which she starts going on about me not eating again basicly not so subtly expressing concerns about Anorexia nervosa

WELL IM SORRY M8 BUT I'M NOT ANOREXIC, YOU ARE THE QUEEN OF NOT EATING YOUR MEALS AND HEY PREHAPS YOU SHOULD STOP PRETENDING TO BE THE OBSERVENT MOTHER YOU SURE AS HELL DIDNT NOTICE WHEN THERE WAS SOMTHING WRONG DID YOU?

sorry, i don't get on with my mother

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