"I take it you're not coming online tonight"

What sort of lame statement is that? At 12 am when it must be about 1 am his time.
"I take it you're not comming online tonight"
In no circumstances is that not a statement brimming with a sense of the passive agressive, it's the question that isn't really a question. A statement. A point of fact. Designed for the soul purpose of reminding the accused that they did infact promise an act that they did not perform. The eppifany of femminin manlipulation.
It is something said by those who do not dare make an outright statement and instead hide in the shadows, the nuances and subtlties of the human language. Hoping that he will not grasp your intent but subconciously sense that he is in trouble, and so interpret that as he has done something wrong.
It is for those who doubt themselves. Doubt their right to make a stand, their standing with his peers, the strength of their boyfriends attraction to them to overlook these occasional outbursts.
And I am one of those.

I know that he is crazy over me and that i need not worry. But i doubt my right, my right to be annoyed over this. My own logic tells me that i am expecting too much, that i am being clingy, annoying. That were I dating myself i would have been driven crazy by this now.
My emotions say I'm annoyed - bloody annoyed.

I am a vessel containing a cold war. Perhaps even an active one.
My logic and emotions are conflicting, even my logic and my logic is doing so. My own understanding of what i consider to be right leads me to hate myself. The composition of this entry encapsulates this hatred and is something that yet again i should, and do, dispise.

I do not like clingy persons. Actually scrap that. I have no problem with clingy persons, just so long as they are not clinging to me.
I also do not endorse controling other people just because you are dating them. Allow me to elaborate somewhat. In my view, people should try to avoid hurting somone they are dating- ergo actions which upset them should be avoided, although this should not be at the price of changing something fundimental to that person.
I.e if someone had a problem with me flirting with other women in a joking manner they could go hang.
To summerise i belive that people should be able to be indipendent people when in relationships.
Nothing confused or scared me more than when my boyfriend asked me if i was ok with him going out with his best friend, particually as we had been dating for only a few weeks and had nothing planned together for that time.

Perhaps because of this i have a severe problem with the concept of me becoming a clingy girlfriend. Someone who ruins boys nights out or gets all bitchy.

So here is my problem.
AO (my boyfriend) is interailing around europe. He previously attempted to talk to me via msn but i had friends over and so wasn't talking much, I felt guilty about this. However he constantly went on about how it was ok as he would talk to me on saturday.
Last night we could only talk for 16 mins but it was ok because we would talk on saturday according to him.
Forever and a day it seemed that he has been insisting that we would talk on saturday when he was staying at doms relitivs. He would text me beforhand and then we would be able to talk.
So, today was saturday. I recived a text from friends asking if i wanted to go to the cinema or do something else, but i politly declinded it because i had "a family thing and i didn't know when it would end" although that was true in reality i didn't want to be out incase i missed AO.
Because it was obvious that I had hurt him last time.
So i clear all my plans for today. At midnight i figured-
I take it he's not coming online tonight.

No text to say he wouldn't
nothing to tell me to not waste my entire day on him
even when i told him that i may not be able to get online he said "Don't worry I'll send you an email then, I just want to talk to you"
No email
No offline messages
No, no nothing

I guess I'm more annoyed because I have turned into the kindof person who waits in on the offchance of some contact from their partner.
Well i say offchance- on the repeated promise that was first mentioned by him on because of no promt by me.
Yes I'm annoyed

But
"I take it you're not coming online tonight"
Because I still see it as a byproduct of what I have become and what I have become is something that i do not even hate.
I pity it, with slight disgust