My best friend was out in town with my crush and phill today, i was invited out but i was busy- in fact i actually ran into them but insited i had to go
then comming out of the gym i had a text saying- i have to talk to you, from bekki
i rang her
apprently she has to talk to me face to face
i immeditatly knew she had made out with one of them
i also knew it wasnt phill
so i met up with her, still kindof hoping i was just thinking the worst
she wouldnt tell me what had happened
i eventually got it out of her
"i kissed steven"
BITCH!!
so i said "AWW!! im so happy for you! how adorable"
and then later on tongight he asked her out
and im so "happy for them"
roughly translates to- im dying inside
i was ment to go out with him tommrow
hardly appropriate now
so she insists i go to town with her tommrow
eventually i say yes, even though i really dont want to- i love her to bits and i dont want to start a fight with her when she goes on about how great he is
O GOD IM NIAVE
"o great, you'll be company for ant, i wanted to be the only girl with two guys but i thought that would be mean, so me steven you and ant"
great
i want to cry
not over him, thats pathetic- but the way everything shit happened today, and how im soo happy for them.
does she know dat you like him though??
if she does thats soo out of order..,
ive been there before...
we all hide it... it takes the piss
hope everythin gets better for ya though
xxx