My best friend was out in town with my crush and phill today, i was invited out but i was busy- in fact i actually ran into them but insited i had to go

then comming out of the gym i had a text saying- i have to talk to you, from bekki
i rang her
apprently she has to talk to me face to face

i immeditatly knew she had made out with one of them
i also knew it wasnt phill

so i met up with her, still kindof hoping i was just thinking the worst
she wouldnt tell me what had happened
i eventually got it out of her

"i kissed steven"

BITCH!!

so i said "AWW!! im so happy for you! how adorable"

and then later on tongight he asked her out
and im so "happy for them"

roughly translates to- im dying inside

i was ment to go out with him tommrow
hardly appropriate now

so she insists i go to town with her tommrow
eventually i say yes, even though i really dont want to- i love her to bits and i dont want to start a fight with her when she goes on about how great he is

O GOD IM NIAVE

"o great, you'll be company for ant, i wanted to be the only girl with two guys but i thought that would be mean, so me steven you and ant"

great

i want to cry

not over him, thats pathetic- but the way everything shit happened today, and how im soo happy for them.